A letter from Kingkong

I found this poem from Dogster, a forum for dog lover…..

When i read it, i thought as though Kingkong is telling me something….

Hi Shiau Lee,

If it should be that I grow weak,
And pain should keep me from my sleep,
Then you must do what must be done,
For this last battle can't be won.
You will be sad I understand,
Don't let your grief control your hand,
For this day more than all the rest,
Your love for me must stand the test.
We've had so many happy years,
What is to come can hold no fears,
You'd not want me to suffer so,
The time has come, please let me go.
Take me where my needs they'll tend,
And please stay with me until the end,
Hold me firm & speak to me,
Until my eyes no longer see.
I know in time that you will see,
The kindness that you do for me,
Although my tail its last has waved,
From pain and suffering I've been saved.
Please do not grieve it must be you,
Who has this painful thing to do,
We've been so close for all these years,
Don't let your heart hold back your tears.

Love, Kingkong….

King Kong – My brother, my friend, my companion…..

Dear Kingkong,

i know that you are not well now….But I don’t know whether are you in pain now… However, you never show you are in pain. Your eyes told me you want to sleep all the time…..

Every morning, i whistled for you and you no longer come to me…

Every night, i called you name and you no longer run towards me…

I know you are weak now, but i believe you are also strong as well…

I spoke to myself that i would let you go…. But my heart told me is not up to me whether to let you go…. Is up to you…

I’m so happy to see you ran to the postman today. I’m happy to hear you bark…. Although is not strong as before, but i can hear the bark of bravery. From that time onwards, i know you are not ready to let go…

For the past four months, i no longer see you ran to the backdoor as you always did because you want to send me off to school…. I knew there is something wrong already.

But, I'm glad till today, you were waiting for me to come home even though you were just lying on the floor while you wagged your tail. I love it when you did that.

My heart ache when i change your diapers because i can see how all the blood oozing out from your wound. My heart ache when i did not hear a wimp from you. You are such a strong boy….

Therefore, I'm glad i came back to KL despite i suffer so much at work. There is nothing more important than being by your side till i hear your last breath….

Kingkong,

I'll stay by your side till you ready to let go. Let’s be strong together. I promise you that i would stop letting you see my tears because i knew you will tear too…

I love you, Kingkong….

 

Love,

Your sis, your companion

Shiau Lee

Athena – The Goddess of War

 

This is not the review of the Korean drama, sequel of Iris -Athena.

But, is my admiration towards the famous Greek Goddess.

ATHENA

Athena is the virgin Patron of the famous Athens.

Athena is known as the Goddess of War because she is the patrons of weapons. She leads battles as the disciplined, strategic side of war. She only is a warrior to defend the State and the native land against the enemies from outside.

She is also the goddess of wisdom, courage, inspiration and civilization. She is the protectress of civilized life, or artesian activities.

She is the first of the three virgin Goddesses, as knows as Maiden, Parthenos, and from this they dedicated a temple to her, and named the temple the Parthenon.

A poetry described her as incarnation of Wisdom, Reason and Purity.

Athens is her city; the olive tree, created by her, is her tree; the owl, is the birth consecrated to her.

I only find out about Athena when  i tried to google the ANTHENA KOREAN DRAMA.

The reason i like Athena is because of the Korean drama

Like Athena, I always want to be brave like her and protect my family, of course cultivate the feminine side of me like her. Of course, we are not looking for war but we are looking forward to have a peaceful and happy home.

And of course i want to have her wisdom, i think is important for a female to have wisdom in this era, because we are no longer in the era of those days with typical housewife at home awaiting for husband to return from work and serve and bear children.

Life is not fair, we cannot have everything perfect in our life. But we do not want our life to be miserable.

Lee Seung Gi is No 1 Idol among Middle Aged Women.

Here is some news i read and stated that Lee Seung Gi is no. 1 Idol among middle-aged women.
I’m not worry that I'm a good fan of Lee Seung Gi, instead am i categorized in middle-aged women…. But luckily, in Lee Seung Gi Facebook Malaysia, most of them are youngster like me…
Here is a latest news on Lee Seung Gi….

On August 13th, KBS’s ‘Entertainment Relay‘ aired the results of a recent survey that polled ‘Middle-aged Women’s Idols’.
The honor of first place went to none other than Lee Seung Gi, who is currently receiving much love for his role on KBS’s ‘1 Night 2 Days‘. One woman commented, “I end up looking only at Lee Seung Gi while watching ‘1 Night 2 Days’. I just can’t help but smile when I see him.”
Lee Seung Gi once again proved his popularity amongst not only the younger crowd, but also the older generation by surpassing other top stars in the survey, including Hyun Bin who came in second, Bae Yong Joon who came in third, and Jo In Sung who came in sixth place.
Source + Photo: Star News via Nate

Things I missed in Ipoh

Number 1 thing I missed in Ipoh.

Is something I felt right after I went thru a mentally tortured jam in downtown KL yesterday!!!!

And the thing that top the lists is the traffic in Ipoh. Practically there is no jam in Ipoh. And the only times I experienced jam were during public holidays and weekend, however, these jams are considered small cases to me because I felt the worst when I was in KL. However, I cannot deny that the number of cars in Ipoh does increases over the years I lived in Ipoh.

I miss the most is when I was in Ipoh, I only leave my Ipoh house at 7.30am and i can punch my card in the department by 7.50am. I would said this is luxury. But now, I need to wake up at 5.30 am to prepare to leave the house at 6.15am. I'm taking LRT and STAR

However, life needs to move on. This is the reality. We need to face it no matter. Maybe like what my good friend said I just need another 3 months to fall in love with KL all over again.

Stay put for the next thing I missed in Ipoh!!!!

Ciao!!!!

(^o^)

Happy People Traits – Do you have any of these traits?

People who are happy always have some similar traits. And i always ask myself what should i do or what should i have to be happy?

Trait 1 – Smile all the time.

For some reasons, i maybe looked cool and snobbish at the first sight. In fact, my college mates once told me that she thought I'm a bitter person because the first time she saw me 8 years ago, i look sad and bitter. But, after a while, she realized she wronged because i always smile and also laugh very loud.

Experts said when you thought of pure happiness, you lips tend to widen and that’s when you smile. And you will see twinkle in your eyes too. And also good vibrant energy circles around your face.

Few months ago, i realized i no longer smile and laugh like last time. And i realized I'm not a happy person anymore. I worked in a stressful environment. I put myself in stressful environment. I blamed other people for making my life miserable.  My colleagues told me i no longer look cheerful as before. I don’t greet my patients with my smile anymore. I do not smile to children anymore. I make older people life miserable with my sour face. I do not response back with smile anymore to strangers.

From that moment onwards, i realized i forgot how to smile and laugh anymore.

So, i decided to use smile as a therapy for myself. No more antibiotics, no more piriton. Only my lips widening as it should be.

Trait 2 – Relaxed body

What else happened when there’s a happy feeling? You will realized your body tends to relaxed. Have you feel your body is relaxed when you sit for your exam or when you are in a competition.

As i no longer being happy person, i realized my body also show signs and symptoms of me being depressing. My body tends to be tired all the time despite i sleep early, eat right and also exercise enough. My body tends to be sick with extra indulge of certain foods like durians. I fell sick and I'm still feeling sick. My body no longer know how to relax anymore.

Therefore, it is important to make yourself happy. Because that’s when your body will relaxed and you will realized you can do better things and perform better with sharp mind and relax body.

Trait No. 3 – The ability to let things go

For another thing i realized too that when I'm no longer happy is i lose the ability to let things go. When i heard my transfer will be on hold because government froze new intake of staffs into my department. I knew that I'll still stay in Ipoh despite is already 4 years. And this issue is a big impact for me. I feel the need to leave Ipoh but i cannot. And I'm still hold on to it. I used to think when you can’t change the things, you can change your mind. I realized i have been holding to the issue and refused to change my mind. And there are some personal grudges i hold to myself that i cannot let go. And every time i think of that grudges, i realized smile is absent from my mouth.

For this trait, i still need to learn. I need to learn to let go. So, i can be happy person again.

Do you know any traits that happy people embraced? Maybe you can share with me here. From your experience, what other traits go with happy people?

Because he is my daddy.

This morning, i look at the clock.

Is already 10.10 am.

I’m sure my dad is awake because that’s the time he will walk Kingkong. Is his daily routine. Or in fact, is Kingkong’s daily routine. Even though my dad is not around, Kingkong will not let go anybody in the house if his routine is not complete on the day itself.

Since i left PJ, my dad is the person that take of Kingkong. I’m sure Kingkong is more affection towards dad than me. However, he deserves it. Because he is my daddy.

10.44am

I picked up my phone and called dad. It rings many times but dad did not answer. I’m sure he is with Kingkong now. Just like in this picture.

So, i waited.

11.21am

Dad replied my call.

The first thing he asked ‘You called me? Something happened?”  His voice filled with concern and care. And i missed that.

Because he is my daddy.

I realized my affection towards my dad grow as I'm older. I do not why? When i was young, i always remembered dad as a stern parent. My cousins teased my dad for being a strict uncle when he was young. Sometimes they will mocked his antique. We always remember his stern voice in the car. Whenever we make noise, once he warned us, none of us has the gut to make a second of noise. 

Because he is my daddy.

I realized my daddy is a patience dad. When incidence happened in my family, my dad is the calmest person in the family. When Al’s condition relapsed, my dad is the person who will be there for her. I worked in hospital too long to realized reality can be cruel because outside there, there are many parents will leave their children with such conditions. But my dad strictly do what he should as a dad. He protects his family.

Because he is my daddy.

Another thing that represent my dad is his fondest towards China. He with his ‘Chinaman’ stomach, cannot tolerate raw Japanese food, and always find chances to China. To explore the root of his origin.

Because he is my daddy.

I realized our family never have a chance to sit at home as one because of the nature of my family business, therefore Fatty Duck Rice stall is the 2nd home. My siblings and I make an effort to help our parents, not because of the wages we received, but because we realized this 2nd home is where we gather together as one family. Leaving faraway from my family, i can feel the importance of dad in my life. What a doting dad he is, he definitely make an impact in my life. When i was helping him over the weekend, customers will asked “ Is this your daughter?, How come so long we never see her?” And he will proudly answer, “ This daughter works in Ipoh hospital as physiotherapist, she only will come here when she comes back for weekend.” So i knew, indirectly, he is proud of me as who i am today.

Because he is my daddy.

My dad does not read English well, while i do not write and read Chinese at all. Thus, my dad would not understand this post is dedicated to him. But I'm sure he understands my love to him.

Because he is my daddy.

Papa, happy father’s day.

Please forgive me because i have my way of saying ‘i love you’ in form of many wordings.

Reality sets in between poverty and love

Last Saturday, i had a wonderful Hong Kong style breakfast with my aunts and uncle at Yoke Fook Moon, that is yum cha and dim sum.

Once we stepped out from the restaurant, i saw this uncle. Usually, he won’t attract my attention, but today i can’t help it but looks at him as though he is from outer space. Is the dog, who sleeps soundly between his legs. Although i do not understand what he wrote in Chinese, but I'm sure he meant about his poverty and needs help from us financially. Although i don’t know this uncle’s story, but beggars in Malaysia are corporation now. They formed a group of disabled people, put them  in worst clothing and spoke the ‘plea’ language. And these people wanders around the places at peak time. The best thing is they will be on in sight at peak hours, usually non-peak hour, you won’t see them.

This picture shown that reality if poverty can set in between love between the dog and uncle. While i see as double sadness as outsiders.